I'm feeling rather down lately.
My father insists I use what models I have got before I can sell some stuff and get some stuff. He's being a bit harsh about it to me (then again, most fathers are) and I find it hard to get in his good-books most of the time. Could it be that I have father issues? The answer would be a likely yes. I'm afraid of not living up to his expectations or being the man he hoped I would be. People who say they listen never really hear because they are blind with stubborn ignorance. I'm not saying he's the bad guy, but he sometimes tends to be it for good reason and it might be hard for me to understand that - a vunerable person with a disability who tries to be like a normal, average person...one who is always trying too hard and failing miserably.
When you are born as a middle-child in a family, you may get little attention from your parents, especially your father, but even though you share your moment of tense times, he's still family no matter what. You didn't choose to be his own son or daughter nor did you ask to be part of his family - you were born into it.
When fathers get angry, they speak roughly and fly off into a rage like most men.
If you are familiar with Lewis Carroll, then you should listen to this:
Speak roughly to your little boy,
And beat him when he sneezes;
He only does it to annoy,
Because he knows it teases.
I'm sorry for going completely off-topic, but...future RWS models like Gordon are officially put on hold as of now. After Toby and Edward, it's gonna be silent on the workbench for a while. Right now, I have some issues to work out.